One Woman’s Addiction to Masturbation

People always think that masturbation is mainly a man’s temptation. I’m here to tell you that it’s not. I have been tormented with masturbation almost all my life.

When I was young I didn’t know that it was wrong in God’s eyes. I was never sexually abused, I had a normal childhood. I was taught about the “Birds and the bees” at a very young age and was somehow consumed with it. I was raised in a Christian family. But masturbation was not something that ever was talked about at home, at church, at youth group. I just always thought there was something wrong with me and that I was the only girl on Earth who had this problem. I felt worthless, useless, hopeless, and most of all disgusted at myself for being a slave to something that seemed so perverse.

It took me a LONG time to finally realize that I wasn’t the only one with this problem and that it was a problem that needed to be delt with. It couldn’t just be buried anymore. I had to face the fact that I had a problem with masturbation and deal with it. God is still working on me. I am still tempted. Sometimes I fail and give in. But one thing I have to remember is that God is not going to give up on me. I’m growing stronger and stronger each day. I will be free of this.

I want everyone with this problem to know that you are NOT hopeless. I am in full time ministry and still have troubles with this issue. God still loves you. He hasn’t given up on you so don’t give up on yourself. Through Him you can do anything, and so can I. He made us for such a time as this, He will help us grow to be the people He has called us to be. You are not alone.

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