A Slave for 15 Years

“I read an article here about a 19 year old young man with the exact problem I have. His love for God and his love for masturbation both equaled each other. I know I am in the same boat as he.”

Masturbation is always with me. I have been a slave to it for 15 years. I am 43 years old, housewife, mother of two grown children and a church member.

I have been a Christian since I was 11 years of age and I didn’t have the problem with masturbation until I was 28 years old.

I am deeply convicted by it, only because I have to fantasize before I can reach orgasm. Pornography is becoming a must for me with the Internet. My husband has finally made me leave the chat rooms because of the power they held over me.

I don’t have an easy answer for this problem or sickness I am experiencing. It grows some days to huge proportions. Some days I have to masturbate at least 3 to 5 times before I can feel satisfied.

My husband knows about this, and he has been very loving and understanding. We have been married to each other for 24 years.

My prayer is not only for me in this situation, but also that 19 year old young man that is starting so early in life with this guilt and shame.

I pray for all of us… those reading and typing all these problems… Let’s pray for one another… Only God can deliver us… if we truly want Him to.

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