An Ugly, Deceiving Sin

by Dan, age 43

This SIN (habitual masturbation) has destroyed four (4) marriages and left three children from two of those marriages without me as their father. It is an ugly deceiving SIN.

For nearly 30 years I tried everything. As a Catholic Alterboy, I struggled with the guilt of it, through all of my early childhood years (from age 10-19). Constantly going to confession about it, but never really knowing what to call this SIN.

Then when I prayed the “Sinner’s Prayer” in 1980, and got married for the first time (I was a virgin) and other Christians began to tell me that I shouldn’t feel guilty about anything, the guilt disappeared, but the SIN remained, worse than ever. I tried fasting, abstaining, and reading my Bible, yet every time it returned, stronger than before. The SIN lead to adultery (me “He-Man” macho needs to be sexually satisfied).

Then one night about a year ago, I was in deep prayer before the LORD, in tears. I had lost my job, had no income… [As I prayed] totally before the LORD, JESUS DID IT! [He rescued me!]

I’ve read most of these stories on this web site, if you’re looking for advice on how to stop, completely? Go to the TRUTH (John 14:6). (Remember JESUS carried your SIN to the cross, so the SIN is already DEAD). Once you get there, don’t let pride get in the way--admit you are defeated and let JESUS DO IT, He’s waiting to cleanse you and make you white as snow (Isaiah 1:18).

Thank you for reading this. May you know that the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ and the power of the Holy Spirit is with you always.

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